A Story of Healing

_Testimonial                                           17.09.2008

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Avalon, my friend, my teacher and my healer. Beautiful goddess, crazy shaman, fearless light-warrior, demon-slayer and powerful wild witch. I would like to share some of my story of how you have healed me, because there are so many others who may also have this opportunity. I would like more people to know about your work.

You have an extraordinary gift. I feel that you are here to bring a great transformation of consciousness to the earth and to bring back all the beauty and magick and sacredness to the earth and to people's lives. I know that you have the power to lift thousands of people out of the dreariness of disempowerment, and back into the divinity of oneness with the source.

When I first met you I was emotionally and physically crippled, due to blockages in my spine, which no osteopath or cranial therapist could fix -- because the problem was in my soul, not my body. Walking and moving was a painful experience, and I could not lift a mug of tea to my lips for 1 1/2 years, I was so weak.

I went to see hundreds of healers, some of which helped a little for a while but none got to the root of my illness. Many times I managed to stagger to come and see you in tears, worn out with pain, feeling broken in spirit and barely able to be in my body. The physical pain I was in every day was so great that nobody in the world seemed to be able to help.

You looked at me with your clairvoyant eyes and saw immediately the root core of the problem. After only a few healing sessions from you, and participating in one of your women's empowerment courses, not only has all the pain completely gone, my body is completely healed. My spine is healed. You have restored my body to a sacred temple. It is thanks to you that I am now strong and healthy and I can lift heavy things without a problem. You have brought back so many parts of my soul that I had been without for so long.

It is through your shamanic power and your unique gifts as a healer that you have brought so much beauty and magick back into my life. You have given me the tools to bring me closer to the divine than I ever thought I could be. And yet it is beyond the tools, it is in your energy.

To describe some of your gifts: I feel that you have a special gift to empower women, and to bring us together as sisters to support each other to heal ourselves and our sexuality, and to bring us back to the ecstasy that is our birthright. You are doing the work to restore the divine feminine soul to our earth -- no matter how corrupted it may seem to be, no matter what state it is in, everyone can be healed. You work magick to a depth that few are able to touch. People with disabilities have been touched by you and have gradually let go of their disability. Alcoholics have come to see you and have begun to find their true spirit and have given up their attachment to false spirits.

Last year I had chronic low energy and no sexual energy. I was carrying a big sexual wound. So I decided to embark on your women's empowerment course. This was far more profound than any tantra or tantric exercises I have ever done. At that time I had very little power, as I had given most of my power away in my relationships with men.

During magical rituals in the forest you guided us to clear out all the damaged and negative energy that we were still carrying in our bodies and in our wombs from past partners. In sacred ceremony we cleansed ourselves of all the shame and everything that we as women were carrying in our bodies that did not belong to us. We then brought back all the power and all the parts of our souls that we had unintentionally given away in relationships. You guided us to Aphrodite's temple where we bathed in virgin pools and renewed and purified our sexuality. Then holding the space in a circle for each other in the forest, we danced our goddess-selves back into our bodies. After the weekend, we six women shared how blessed we felt to be re-attuned to the energies of our deep goddess nature. After only two weekends I felt reconnected to my sexual power, and to the passion and beauty of being a woman, which I had lost. I felt free from the "stuff" of the past, and well on the way to being whole.

Your power also lies in your purity of heart. You speak with the great compassion and wisdom of someone who has experienced so much suffering, and you are doing the work 24 hours, day and night to transform all the pain, through your own body and through your healing and through your teaching and your magick and through your neverending selfless service to the Goddess. You are changing the world by standing up to all those who seek to oppress the feminine power, by being a fighter for Truth and Justice, empowering women everywhere, calling us back to the Goddess through your wisdom and your music. And once we have heard the call, the magick is irresistible. There is no turning back.

You are an enchantress. It is when you sing the songs that you have received from the Goddess, during medicine ceremonies, that the power comes through. The power to heal just about any problem, if the listener is open to receive it. Your singing is so beautiful that it instantly transports me into a very deep space, sometimes into a trance. The vibration carries an energetic transmission where the power of Shiva, Kali, (or whoever is singing through you in that moment) comes through and goes right to our hearts. It seems to either take people into oneness with the divine, or make them go crazy if they can't handle it. Your singing does seem to unlock some of the secrets of the universe. I cannot explain it, but I know the ceremonies would not be half as powerful without it. We were crying tears of bliss, we felt so blessed just to feel this love that is in this world but not of this world.

You heal us simply by being in your truth and speaking your truth and singing your truth, seeing through all the illusions that we get caught in, and exposing all the false teachings and the injustice. Your power is your core-splitting honesty and directness. Your light is so bright that it shines on all the shadows and all that is hidden in us. In your presence it seems that everything that is not in harmony with truth can no longer tolerate itself! You seem to bring to the surface all the pain and darkness from the core of our being. This can be quite uncomfortable.

When I first met you I was, to put it bluntly, a wimp. I had allowed my will to be crushed by traumatic experiences with my family. You taught me how to rebuild a strong will. You taught me courage to face myself and you led me to embrace my darkest shadow. You taught me how to reclaim the power and beauty I had given away. I was somehow or other an eternal wounded child. You taught me about true independence and maturity.

In one healing session I came to you semi-paralysed. I lay down and you stormed down to my underworld and pulled out quite a number of very repulsive ancestral demons that had been paralysing my spine for weeks, making normal mobility very difficult. I felt a big release of guilt and shame, which was ancestral. After the session the paralysis mysteriously disappeared and I could move freely.

I would like to share healing experience in which you took me straight into my core wound and I released a trauma I had been carrying all my life, which was still keeping a part of me locked in darkness.

You went to my base chakra and found the dark heavy energy of abuse still blocking my life force from flowing. Going deeper you found a law engraved on stone which said "I am unlovable." We called on my higher self and we smashed and broke this law. This law had been formed from being sexually abused as a young girl. I found myself inside a prison -- I felt cold, dark, lonely, abused, dirty and unloved. Together we broke down the walls of the prison and I felt the incredible joy of breaking free. I walked towards the rising sun. This man had taken my power and creativity. This is partly why my body had broken down. Then you took me on a shamanic journey to meet my inner child. We found her in the forest all sad and lonely, with dirty clothes, feeling dirty and disgusting. And you took the child in your arms, washed her clothes, dressed her in beautiful clothes as a princess, and gave her all the love she never received as a child.

I allowed the feelings of shame and unworthiness and I fell asleep at the moment where you liberated the trauma from my body. When I awoke I felt a big beautiful strong part of my soul come back into my body. It was the pure and happy child in me that had been taken away. Then you breathed life back into my base chakra. We went into the garden and you drummed out all the disgust and shame and you drummed in the power and light as you rewove and rebuilt my aura. The moment you drummed the last drum beat, the rain suddenly began to pour and there was a torrential downpour. I felt cleansed and purified.

After the session I felt somehow like I am all here. I felt so happy to be pure again and I felt so free.

This healing is just one example of the many wonderful things you have given to me. You are the busiest most hard-working person I know and yet you have magickally managed to always have more time to help others, and you have always been there to help me.

Avalon, I love you and thank you from my heart. I still have so much work to do, and yet I feel so close to home. I don't think I would have made it without you.

Love,

Suditi May (Miriam)

_I wish to thank Suditi for the brave and candid sharing of her journey of healing, which she has asked me to publish so that others who suffer as she has suffered are given hope. The above testimonial is exclusively for this website and may not be reproduced, copied or quoted elsewhere without the author's permission!

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